I was thinking the other day about how much Matthew actually does for me. He is the most amazing guy I have ever met, and I have know some really amazing guys in my life. The Lord put him in my path at a time that I was needing someone with his many talents and traits and I will be forever grateful for that.
Every little girl makes a list at some point in their youth about all the wonderful things she looks for in a husband. Well, maybe not every little girl, but I certainly did. As a matter of fact, I even updated it after I met Matthew. When you're young you put things like, caring, kind, brave, strong, cute, etc . . . but after I met Matthew I knew there were other things that I needed on that list, and he fit the bill perfectly. A good listener, someone who will understand me, someone who will always be there for me and our family. I wanted someone who wanted to serve the Lord with all his heart, because I knew if he did that then he would love and serve his family with all his heart. I wanted someone who would respect me and treat me with dignity at all times. I wanted someone who would stick up for me, no matter what or who it was. I wanted someone worthy of holding the priesthood so our family would always have the blessings of the priesthood in our home. I wanted someone who would be willing to go to hell and back to be with me, and that is exactly what happened. We went through things most couples don't even think about. But, I think it was needed, and because we were so committed to each other and to what it is we wanted, that even through the trials and the missions and time spent apart and other such things we made it. We made it and were married and he is mine forever. I don't really know what it is he sees in me. He tells me often enough, but I sometimes don't believe him. I sometimes think that our relationship is a little lopsided, and that he does SO much more for me than I do for him. He doesn't think that, and I am grateful, but I am always looking for ways to be more for him. More supportive, more helpful, more anything that I think will help his life. I only hope that through the last 8 years of marriage that I have done enough to make him feel just as loved as he makes me feel. I love him more than life, more than my own soul. I would definitely and without question go to the depths of hell to get him out if need be. He is amazing as a father to our children. He is so kind and loving and patient, not just with them, but with me on days that I've just had it. He puts up with all my little quirks and my quick temper. He seriously is my opposite and yet my compliment in every way. I love you so much Matthew. Thank you so much for the wonderful 8 years of marriage, and the 6 years before. Thank you for sticking with me even when it was hard and I made it impossible for you. Thank you for everything you do and everything you've sacrificed to make a family with me. I hope to be able to make it up to you someday. :)
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