Something very exciting just happened recently. The dedication of the Provo City Center Temple. Matthew and I were able to attend the 3:00pm session and it was so peaceful, and I was able to really feel the spirit of the Lord there. The talks given were amazing! So much that I was able to absorb and take into my heart to help restore my resolve and keep me going in this crazy thing we call life. It was nice to feel the peace and quiet, and feel the presence of the Lord in His Holy House.
There was something I got to thinking about while I was in there. We were there about 30 minutes early, and we were sitting in the chapel of our ward building and waiting for everything to start. As we sat there, there were scenes of other temples with music playing. It got me thinking about how much work really goes into making a temple. It's not just the plans for the blueprints and things like that, but of the certain colors used, the upholstry, the scenes painted on the walls, the wood work, and on an on. There are so many details and each one is painstakingly picked out and put up. I can't even imagine how hard it must be to do such a thing. But, the temple always has this beauty, different than you will find in any other building in the world. It also matches perfectly the area and history of where it is built. The inside of the Provo City Center Temple is perfectly executed to maintain the feel of the pioneers who originally built the Tabernacle, and it feels very much like the area here in Provo. It has a strange feeling of the Lord's house and home at the same time. It's just an amazing feeling.
I started thinking about that scripture that reads, "know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?" In Primary, in Young Women's, and in Relief Society I will always remember us talking about how our bodies are temples, and that the Lord wouldn't want us to do anything to defile them. I then thought of how carefully everything is picked out for the temples we visit, and if that is true, I'm sure that Heavenly Father picked out everything He put inside of us just as carefully. There are things that are naturally a part of us, things that every person has. We all have the light of Christ, we all have the ability to love, and laugh and feel emotions of all kinds. We have been decorated with things on the outside. I have brown hair, and fair skin that is sometimes too dry and sometimes too greasy. I have things I like about how I look and things I don't like about it as well. There are, likewise, things that I have on the inside of me that I like and things that I don't. I get after myself for the failings that I have, and I am trying hard to use the talents and the spiritual gifts that the Lord specifically blessed me with. How often do we try to say to ourselves that we aren't as good as so-and-so because they have a better life than we do? They have a better car, are better looking, maybe even sometimes we feel that way about their spiritual gifts. We all wish we could be like the general authorities of the church, and that they must be so very good and they can see so much. They are human as well. They were all blessed with things, from the Lord, and decorated by the Lord, with the things that would compliment who they are and get them where they need to go in this life. They are blessed with the things they need, and they are working hard to keep those things in line with the Lord's teachings, in order to reach the people and fulfill the purpose the Lord has for them on this earth. I believe it is the same for all of us. The gifts we all have are amazing, and unique, and there isn't one that the Lord will treasure above the others. He needs us all to believe in ourselves, and be doing the best we can with what He so lovingly gave us. The talents, the emotions, the things that are just a part of who we are. None of us are alike, and that is a VERY good thing. We don't need to be like someone else to be happy and to enjoy what we have been given. We should also rejoice in the fact that there are people out there to have gifts to help us with our failings. We are all there to help lift each other up and balance each other out. Maybe my weakness is my husbands strength, and that's why he has it. He is there to help me, and maybe there is something about me that no one else can use like I can, and I need to develop it and use it to help those who are struggling with those things. Instead of always being in competition with each other, couldn't we all learn to love and appreciate everyone's talents and gifts? We could boost each other and lift everyone instead of people always feeling they are lesser and aren't worth anything, because that simply is NOT true. God made us, and He loves us. He would NEVER want us to feel that we aren't worth anything. I have been thinking about the things I was blessed with, and rather than see what other people have that is "better" than me, I think I will start to focus on how to develop the spiritual gifts and talents that I have to uplift and help those around me. I need to lose that competetive side, and I need to see more in me. I need to see myself through "heaven's eyes". And more importantly, I need to see everyone else and their talents and gifts through heavens eyes. No need to be sad about who or what we are. What we are my friends, are children of God, and He loves us, and He was very careful about the things that we came down here with. He will help us, and He has put others here, everyone in fact, with their different kinds of beauty to help us get through this life. "I will not leave you comfortless, I will come to you". Let's all try to help those who don't feel they have these beautiful insides, like the temple, to see the beauty inside of themselves. It's hard sometimes, but with the Lords help all things are possible.
We all are the Lord's temples! Let us shine as a beacon for the world!
Tuesday, March 22, 2016
Sin and SORROW are not happiness
I have been on a spiritual journey as of late. I am trying hard to be worthy to receive every blessing that the Lord promises us when we obey His commandments. There are a lot of things that are uncertain for us this year, and a lot of really big goals we are trying to work towards. I know that I need to be better in tune with the Lord in order to make it, and to truly have the kind of faith that can move mountains. I'm trying to do more of those basic things that will bring blessings into our lives.
One of those things that I have thought a lot about lately in this journey is my patriarchal blessing. I couldn't find a copy in the house, so I logged into my LDS.org account and requested it, and was able to print it out. (Super cool!) I have a copy that I keep in my bag so that I can turn to it in times of trial and self doubt about what I am trying to accomplish. I was reading with Matthew the other day, because sometimes we take time to read each other's blessings out loud to each other and gain some insight, and maybe the other person can gain that insight and help us to see it as well. At the end of my blessing it states something that I supposed I have taken for granted for as long as I can remember. In my blessing it says that sin and sorrow is not happiness.
It's something that we hear all the time. It's in the scriptures, many prophets have echoed these words throughout time. But, I guess I never really stopped to ponder what that means in it's entirety. In the Topical Guide, when one looks under sorrow it also has other words. Words like adversity, anguish, despair, grief, misery, mourning, pain, suffering, tribulation, and trouble. I think everyone knows what sorrow is, whether they are able to really say it in words adequately or not. I would also add words like depression, anxiety, PTSD, and things of the like. Those things definitely cause us sorrow, and sometimes we don't know where to go or what to do to overcome it.
Alma 41:10
This scripture talks about wickedness never being happiness. I always assumed, through my blessing, that it talked about sorrow as well. So why then, did the partiarch feel inspired to put the 2 things, together, in my blessing the way he did? I have been pondering on this for a few days now, and have found something that has helped to elevate me to a better understanding. I think the Lord was most definitely trying to get at something here.
I went to find the scripture that talked about sin and sorrow not being happiness. I looked under sorrow and never found it. I looked under sin, and the same thing, I never did find it. I KNEW that there was a scripture there and I couldn't find it. I finally thought of the scripture mastery from seminary, and went to look at those scriptures. I finally found the one I had been looking for, and it read exactly as I remembered, only I guess I had changed it in my mind at some point to read how I saw in my patriarchal blessing. The scripture specifically says "Wickedness never was happiness". Wickedness and sin are synonyms, and I know from personal experience about sin and wickedness not being happiness. But the sorrow part I had never really thought about before. Sorrow is the exact opposite of happiness. Everyone knows this, even I knew this, but there is something deeper I think the Lord was trying to get at here.
The Lord Jesus Christ is what we celebrate this time of year. We celebrate the single greatest event in human history, that He died, that He atoned for us. He went to the Garden of Gethsemane, and he sweat as it were great drops of blood for us. To rescue us from sin, AND sorrow. He was then tried and convicted and went to Calvary to finish this atonement for us. For our Sins, for our Wickedness, and for all our Sorrows, Griefs, and Sadness. It brings to mind the scripture in Isaiah 53:3-5.
"Christ’s mission was never intended to prevent hearts from breaking but to heal broken hearts." <3
One of those things that I have thought a lot about lately in this journey is my patriarchal blessing. I couldn't find a copy in the house, so I logged into my LDS.org account and requested it, and was able to print it out. (Super cool!) I have a copy that I keep in my bag so that I can turn to it in times of trial and self doubt about what I am trying to accomplish. I was reading with Matthew the other day, because sometimes we take time to read each other's blessings out loud to each other and gain some insight, and maybe the other person can gain that insight and help us to see it as well. At the end of my blessing it states something that I supposed I have taken for granted for as long as I can remember. In my blessing it says that sin and sorrow is not happiness.
It's something that we hear all the time. It's in the scriptures, many prophets have echoed these words throughout time. But, I guess I never really stopped to ponder what that means in it's entirety. In the Topical Guide, when one looks under sorrow it also has other words. Words like adversity, anguish, despair, grief, misery, mourning, pain, suffering, tribulation, and trouble. I think everyone knows what sorrow is, whether they are able to really say it in words adequately or not. I would also add words like depression, anxiety, PTSD, and things of the like. Those things definitely cause us sorrow, and sometimes we don't know where to go or what to do to overcome it.
Alma 41:10
This scripture talks about wickedness never being happiness. I always assumed, through my blessing, that it talked about sorrow as well. So why then, did the partiarch feel inspired to put the 2 things, together, in my blessing the way he did? I have been pondering on this for a few days now, and have found something that has helped to elevate me to a better understanding. I think the Lord was most definitely trying to get at something here.
I went to find the scripture that talked about sin and sorrow not being happiness. I looked under sorrow and never found it. I looked under sin, and the same thing, I never did find it. I KNEW that there was a scripture there and I couldn't find it. I finally thought of the scripture mastery from seminary, and went to look at those scriptures. I finally found the one I had been looking for, and it read exactly as I remembered, only I guess I had changed it in my mind at some point to read how I saw in my patriarchal blessing. The scripture specifically says "Wickedness never was happiness". Wickedness and sin are synonyms, and I know from personal experience about sin and wickedness not being happiness. But the sorrow part I had never really thought about before. Sorrow is the exact opposite of happiness. Everyone knows this, even I knew this, but there is something deeper I think the Lord was trying to get at here.
The Lord Jesus Christ is what we celebrate this time of year. We celebrate the single greatest event in human history, that He died, that He atoned for us. He went to the Garden of Gethsemane, and he sweat as it were great drops of blood for us. To rescue us from sin, AND sorrow. He was then tried and convicted and went to Calvary to finish this atonement for us. For our Sins, for our Wickedness, and for all our Sorrows, Griefs, and Sadness. It brings to mind the scripture in Isaiah 53:3-5.
3 He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.
4 ¶Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.
5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
There is a lot that is said and felt in that scripture, and my testimony of the Atonement is as strong as ever. I know that the Lord did what was impossible for us to do for ourselves, and He did it with pure love in His heart, so that we don't have to forever feel the sting of sin OR sorrow. One phrase of this particular scripture stuck out to me. "The chastisement of our peace was upon him". He went through all of that so that we would have peace. Not just the peace that this world has that is so fleeting, but an everlasting peace. Sorrow is what the adversary wants us to feel. He wants us to be so beside ourselves with emotions and not knowing what to do, where to go, or even to believe that we are WORTH saving that Christ also paid for us another price. He paid the price for peace. Because of Him, I am able to overcome my sorrows. I am able to know that there is at least one other person that will completely and totally understand how I feel, no matter what is happening in my life. I don't have to go through that alone, and there is a way to overcome sorrow as well as sin. I have felt the redeeming joy of overcoming sin. I have felt the forgiveness of my Lord and Savior from repenting of sin, and because of that was able to forgive myself. Sorrow is the same. I don't have to feel like there is no one there. I never have to feel like I can't talk to someone or that He won't listen or understand. Heavenly Father made me, and He loves me for who I am. If Christ could see the good in people, even in the worst of circumstances like being hung on the cross, then so can I. If He can see the miracles even in the trials, then so can I. Sorrow isn't happiness, but because my Savior suffered, and went through SO MUCH SORROW, I don't have to suffer for the rest of my life with it, and I can somehow pick myself up and keep going, finding the good in every situation. Because in all reality, it's all I need to make it through. All I need is the love of my Savior and to know that He can help me, no matter how I feel, because he already has been there, and paid that price for me. I can become more like Him by helping others in their sorrows. I can help lift other people up, and ease their burdens.
When I'm feeling sorrow, it is the exact opposite of what the Lord wants and NEEDS me to feel. So, instead of looking at it as Sorrow is not happiness, because it is obvious that it isn't, what can I do, combined with the Lord, to be happy, and to "Let my light so shine"? Hence I have the miracle jar I started this year. I need to look at that jar, often, and add things that I know are good things the Lord is giving to me, things to help increase my faith and to give me the hope I need to get through those days that feel dark and bleak.
The greatest part of the Atonement is the miracle that we see at the end, the Resurrection! He suffered through all that, and he went through things we will never be able to fully comprehend in this life. He suffered in agony and sorrow even to the point of asking Heavenly Father "If it be possible remove this cup from me." But even still He was willing to do that, to put everything out there for us. I can't imagine being in that same place. Knowing that the future of everyone rested on you, I would definitely be sad, depressed, even sorrowful. Yet He endured it, and He earned the reward. He Lives! He overcame that second death so that we could all live again, with our families forever and create families in the next life and start the cycle again. So, even though we may not see the blessing of the trial, we should look for the miracle, look for the good that came out of it; look for the things that will make us closer to becoming like God so we can, again, regain His presence.
We are here to gain light, and that is the only thing we can take with us. So, I am going to focus on collecting light. I am going to focus on gaining the most of what will do me the most good when I move on from this life, and I hope that I can be an instrument in the Lord's hands to help others to gain more light as well. I know that there will be days the storm is raging, and that I feel sorrow, and maybe even start to lose hope. But I know that by doing those things that are basic, reading, praying, and thinking of God, He will help me most on those days. I will ask Him to help me to find the light that I am supposed to find in the trial. I am so grateful for all that Heavenly Father has given me. I have a testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ, and I have the priesthood authority in my home and around me. I have a wonderful husband who loves and honors the Lord every day and I have 2 amazing sons who are a tender mercy from God. They help me to gain more light, and teach me new things every day. I hope I can always remember to find a miracle in every day, and to chase the sorrow away with the Lord's love and light. When I'm feeling sorrow, it is the exact opposite of what the Lord wants and NEEDS me to feel. So, instead of looking at it as Sorrow is not happiness, because it is obvious that it isn't, what can I do, combined with the Lord, to be happy, and to "Let my light so shine"? Hence I have the miracle jar I started this year. I need to look at that jar, often, and add things that I know are good things the Lord is giving to me, things to help increase my faith and to give me the hope I need to get through those days that feel dark and bleak.
The greatest part of the Atonement is the miracle that we see at the end, the Resurrection! He suffered through all that, and he went through things we will never be able to fully comprehend in this life. He suffered in agony and sorrow even to the point of asking Heavenly Father "If it be possible remove this cup from me." But even still He was willing to do that, to put everything out there for us. I can't imagine being in that same place. Knowing that the future of everyone rested on you, I would definitely be sad, depressed, even sorrowful. Yet He endured it, and He earned the reward. He Lives! He overcame that second death so that we could all live again, with our families forever and create families in the next life and start the cycle again. So, even though we may not see the blessing of the trial, we should look for the miracle, look for the good that came out of it; look for the things that will make us closer to becoming like God so we can, again, regain His presence.
"Christ’s mission was never intended to prevent hearts from breaking but to heal broken hearts." <3
Monday, March 14, 2016
February Fun!
February was a fun and mostly relaxing time for the Hemby clan. We had a lot of fun times with the boys and friends and family, and we also had a couple of scary things happen, but we are grateful for the Lord's hand in our lives.
First of all, Ammon is now 7 months old! He has learned how to roll from his tummy to his back, and has given us a couple of scares when he is on the bed or couch. He even can jump around in the bumbo and so we are starting to shy away from using that since he is sitting up really well on his own. He kind of scoots around on his bum to get what he wants, and he has only gotten on his knees 2 times like he is gong to crawl, but then he gets REALLY bent out of shape and decides it's just not going to happen. He loves to eat his food, or any food we will give him for that matter, and has blown out of every diaper that he poops in basically. We went up a size on the diaper and it still happens. We are also done breastfeeding, but he is liking the formula and he got about 8 months worth of breastmilk, which is significantly longer than his brother. He also weighs about 18 pounds and is growing like a weed. He loves to giggle and laugh, loves to play with his brother, and has started talking to us. He lets us know when he wants his "baba" (bottle) and he responds when we ask him things and talk to him. It is SO stinkin' cute. :) We went out and played in the snow with his brother, and he did NOT like to sit in the snow at all! Immediately welled up and started with big tears down his face. Michael enjoyed the time outside, and Ammon was ok as long as he wasn't sitting in the snow or touching it, but it was a fun kind of outing.
Michael LOVES the snow! He wanted to build a snowman, however, if he touches the snow with his bare hands, he freaks out and cries and runs to you to get it off of him! His favorite thing to watch right now is Little Einsteins, and that's pretty much all he likes to watch. He is getting more into the spirit of playing with his brother and sharing his toys. He still has his mean days, but otherwise he is such a great big brother, and Momma's little helper. He likes to do everything himself, and he lets you know about it. He is responding better to wanting to potty train, so we let him pick out a potty seat and we got him a sticker chart and a few incentives and he is getting excited to "pee on the potty like Andrew does". (Andrew is his friend who was potty trained a few months ago. Michael has always been pretty good at beat-boxing and he LOVES music, and lately he is singing, and he is actually pretty good at it. His pitch is fairly good for a kid his age, and he knows a lot of the words to songs I didn't even think about. I can't believe he will be 3 in March, and he has already told us that he wants a blue cake, and then he said he wants a chocolate cake with blue frosting and a shield like Captain America, so that's what we will try to do for him. I just love his smiles, and how much he cares. I have the best boys ever!
Matthew and I were going to do a little weekend without the boys for Valentines Day. They went to stay with Grandma, and we were able to have some extra time together that first day since I was let go from work early. (It was really slow) I knew I would be scheduled on Valentines day, so we thought we would take advantage of the rest of the weekend. We bought some treats and got to talk and just be together, which was really nice. We ended up having to go and get the boys early, since this was Ammon's first time away from home, and he didn't deal really well without having Daddy there to put him to bed. On our way home from that, we were in a little car accident, but it wasn't as bad as it could have been. There was A LOT of fog, and the roads were slippery, and especially under the overpasses on the south side of point of the mountain. There was a car accident up ahead and the car in front of us was trying to stop, and so were we, and everything happened so fast and we weren't able to stop fast enough, so we rear ended them. But, no one was hurt, and the worst of the damage was that our license plate fell off the car. There were already about 4 officers on the side of the road dealing with these issues, because as I was sitting there waiting for Matthew to check on the other car and exchange information, I saw 4 vehicles slide and turn 360 degrees. One almost got clocked by a semi-truck, so we were really blessed that it wasn't anything worse than what it could have been. The Lord is always blessing us in unexpected ways.
This month's goal for me was to not eat any fruity candy. Nothing that was a hard candy or chewy that was fruity of any kind. So, I had a lot of headaches, and I even got sick after visiting family one weekend (everyone ended up sick), but it was only a 24 hour bug so we were blessed with that as well. I am feeling the urge less and less to have to have something sugary to eat. I have also been trying to work out for 30 minutes 2-3 times per week and that has been going fairly well. It's hard when my body doesn't do what it once could, and I know that I have a lot of work to do, but I am hoping that it will get easier and I will be able to handle more and more as time goes. I would love to be able to say, at the end of this year, that I had lost some weight and had a steady workout that I do and that I can feel good about me again. Matthew was really kind and bought be some new things I could wear that actually fit me. I am trying not to focus on the size of the items, just on how I look in them. I know I can do this, and it will take a lot of work, but I am wanting to better myself, not just for me but for my family as well, especially my boys. I want to be able to go and play and do things with them, and it's hard when my body won't let me. So I am excited to keep going and see positive things happen.
Matthew started up his facebook page for his L.A.R.P again, Terror of the Lich. If you haven't seen it go and take a look. I even decided to step outside of my comfort zone and play a character on the game. If you want to play one too, he would happily incorporate you into the game. It is really a lot of fun, and something cool since it's kind of like a book but a really interactive one that you are helping to write, so it's cool. He has also thought of writing all of it down in a blog so that he can keep it all cataloged well to write his books one day. Matthew was also given a temporary job at work. He was put on the fraud team, and he is excelling at it! He loves it and I think it's a great step in the right direction of where he would really like to be working in the company. We both also got our stuff back from work for our annual raises, and we are doing pretty well as far as all that goes as well. So, a lot to be thankful for. We will hopefully be able to keep seeing blessings as we are obedient to the Lord and what He asks of us. And we will hopefully be able to get the debt paid off so I can be a stay at home mom. :)
We went to a superbowl party at Jeremiah and Alyna's house, and it was really fun! But even more fun than that was the Disney "super bowl" party we had later! It was a party Alyna and I did since Jamberry just came out with their cute new set of Disney wraps, and there was the 60th anniversary of Disneyland show that was done on ABC, so Alyna recorded it and we watched! Superbowl style! We made some disney treats and Mickey Pizza and it was so much fun! And yummy!
First of all, Ammon is now 7 months old! He has learned how to roll from his tummy to his back, and has given us a couple of scares when he is on the bed or couch. He even can jump around in the bumbo and so we are starting to shy away from using that since he is sitting up really well on his own. He kind of scoots around on his bum to get what he wants, and he has only gotten on his knees 2 times like he is gong to crawl, but then he gets REALLY bent out of shape and decides it's just not going to happen. He loves to eat his food, or any food we will give him for that matter, and has blown out of every diaper that he poops in basically. We went up a size on the diaper and it still happens. We are also done breastfeeding, but he is liking the formula and he got about 8 months worth of breastmilk, which is significantly longer than his brother. He also weighs about 18 pounds and is growing like a weed. He loves to giggle and laugh, loves to play with his brother, and has started talking to us. He lets us know when he wants his "baba" (bottle) and he responds when we ask him things and talk to him. It is SO stinkin' cute. :) We went out and played in the snow with his brother, and he did NOT like to sit in the snow at all! Immediately welled up and started with big tears down his face. Michael enjoyed the time outside, and Ammon was ok as long as he wasn't sitting in the snow or touching it, but it was a fun kind of outing.
Michael LOVES the snow! He wanted to build a snowman, however, if he touches the snow with his bare hands, he freaks out and cries and runs to you to get it off of him! His favorite thing to watch right now is Little Einsteins, and that's pretty much all he likes to watch. He is getting more into the spirit of playing with his brother and sharing his toys. He still has his mean days, but otherwise he is such a great big brother, and Momma's little helper. He likes to do everything himself, and he lets you know about it. He is responding better to wanting to potty train, so we let him pick out a potty seat and we got him a sticker chart and a few incentives and he is getting excited to "pee on the potty like Andrew does". (Andrew is his friend who was potty trained a few months ago. Michael has always been pretty good at beat-boxing and he LOVES music, and lately he is singing, and he is actually pretty good at it. His pitch is fairly good for a kid his age, and he knows a lot of the words to songs I didn't even think about. I can't believe he will be 3 in March, and he has already told us that he wants a blue cake, and then he said he wants a chocolate cake with blue frosting and a shield like Captain America, so that's what we will try to do for him. I just love his smiles, and how much he cares. I have the best boys ever!
Matthew and I were going to do a little weekend without the boys for Valentines Day. They went to stay with Grandma, and we were able to have some extra time together that first day since I was let go from work early. (It was really slow) I knew I would be scheduled on Valentines day, so we thought we would take advantage of the rest of the weekend. We bought some treats and got to talk and just be together, which was really nice. We ended up having to go and get the boys early, since this was Ammon's first time away from home, and he didn't deal really well without having Daddy there to put him to bed. On our way home from that, we were in a little car accident, but it wasn't as bad as it could have been. There was A LOT of fog, and the roads were slippery, and especially under the overpasses on the south side of point of the mountain. There was a car accident up ahead and the car in front of us was trying to stop, and so were we, and everything happened so fast and we weren't able to stop fast enough, so we rear ended them. But, no one was hurt, and the worst of the damage was that our license plate fell off the car. There were already about 4 officers on the side of the road dealing with these issues, because as I was sitting there waiting for Matthew to check on the other car and exchange information, I saw 4 vehicles slide and turn 360 degrees. One almost got clocked by a semi-truck, so we were really blessed that it wasn't anything worse than what it could have been. The Lord is always blessing us in unexpected ways.
This month's goal for me was to not eat any fruity candy. Nothing that was a hard candy or chewy that was fruity of any kind. So, I had a lot of headaches, and I even got sick after visiting family one weekend (everyone ended up sick), but it was only a 24 hour bug so we were blessed with that as well. I am feeling the urge less and less to have to have something sugary to eat. I have also been trying to work out for 30 minutes 2-3 times per week and that has been going fairly well. It's hard when my body doesn't do what it once could, and I know that I have a lot of work to do, but I am hoping that it will get easier and I will be able to handle more and more as time goes. I would love to be able to say, at the end of this year, that I had lost some weight and had a steady workout that I do and that I can feel good about me again. Matthew was really kind and bought be some new things I could wear that actually fit me. I am trying not to focus on the size of the items, just on how I look in them. I know I can do this, and it will take a lot of work, but I am wanting to better myself, not just for me but for my family as well, especially my boys. I want to be able to go and play and do things with them, and it's hard when my body won't let me. So I am excited to keep going and see positive things happen.
Matthew started up his facebook page for his L.A.R.P again, Terror of the Lich. If you haven't seen it go and take a look. I even decided to step outside of my comfort zone and play a character on the game. If you want to play one too, he would happily incorporate you into the game. It is really a lot of fun, and something cool since it's kind of like a book but a really interactive one that you are helping to write, so it's cool. He has also thought of writing all of it down in a blog so that he can keep it all cataloged well to write his books one day. Matthew was also given a temporary job at work. He was put on the fraud team, and he is excelling at it! He loves it and I think it's a great step in the right direction of where he would really like to be working in the company. We both also got our stuff back from work for our annual raises, and we are doing pretty well as far as all that goes as well. So, a lot to be thankful for. We will hopefully be able to keep seeing blessings as we are obedient to the Lord and what He asks of us. And we will hopefully be able to get the debt paid off so I can be a stay at home mom. :)
We went to a superbowl party at Jeremiah and Alyna's house, and it was really fun! But even more fun than that was the Disney "super bowl" party we had later! It was a party Alyna and I did since Jamberry just came out with their cute new set of Disney wraps, and there was the 60th anniversary of Disneyland show that was done on ABC, so Alyna recorded it and we watched! Superbowl style! We made some disney treats and Mickey Pizza and it was so much fun! And yummy!
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